Thursday, February 14, 2008
hilarious
I just saw this on tv and laughed so hard.
"I really underestimated the creepiness." So good. So good.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
reminiscing
Aw....I was just reading my pregnancy blog and it brought such a big smile to my face. It also seems like a life time ago and crazy how much I've learned and grown in the past 3ish months. And so weird to think that that baby inside of me was Noah. So weird. Very surreal.
Wow.
*warning*
If you are squeamish and don't want to hear about icky pregnancy things, you'd probably better steer clear of the blog.
That's all.
Wow.
*warning*
If you are squeamish and don't want to hear about icky pregnancy things, you'd probably better steer clear of the blog.
That's all.
confessions of a lazy reader
I have a confession to make:
I am a skimmer by nature. That is, when I read, more likely than not I have skimmed/skipped over parts of a book that didn't seem that interesting to me. This includes technical parts in a novel, or even skipping "application" sections of a nonfiction book in order to get to the next story or illustration. You could call it lazy reading.
This is why approaching the Bible to read takes a heckuva lot of motivation for me. Especially because I know there aren't really any parts that I should be skipping over. Because all parts are there for a reason and are important to the plot line. And to me. So it is with a bit of shame and discouragement that I also confess (wow...it must be the fact that I haven't left the house in over a week that has me in the "confessing" mood) that I am only on day 7 of my schedule to read through the Bible in a year. Partly because adjusting to being a Mom has been interesting to find quiet times throughout my day. Partly because I've always struggled with maintaining a regular (daily) time in the Word. Partly because even since Noah's naps have become very regulated and I do now have chunks in my day...it's just hard to sit myself down, be still, and read. every. single. word. without. skimming. Partly because getting the motivation to start is a million times harder than it is to keep going once it's a regular part of your routine.
So that's me. I know that right now I'm going on "manna" I've gathered from weeks and months and years before. I also know that I'm actually supposed to be out collecting manna on a daily basis to get me through each and every day. Sometimes (most times) head knowledge takes a really long time to become heart knowledge and ultimately action.
I think I'm going to write a book called "Everything I needed to know about life I learned while support raising."
It'll be a great book.
I am a skimmer by nature. That is, when I read, more likely than not I have skimmed/skipped over parts of a book that didn't seem that interesting to me. This includes technical parts in a novel, or even skipping "application" sections of a nonfiction book in order to get to the next story or illustration. You could call it lazy reading.
This is why approaching the Bible to read takes a heckuva lot of motivation for me. Especially because I know there aren't really any parts that I should be skipping over. Because all parts are there for a reason and are important to the plot line. And to me. So it is with a bit of shame and discouragement that I also confess (wow...it must be the fact that I haven't left the house in over a week that has me in the "confessing" mood) that I am only on day 7 of my schedule to read through the Bible in a year. Partly because adjusting to being a Mom has been interesting to find quiet times throughout my day. Partly because I've always struggled with maintaining a regular (daily) time in the Word. Partly because even since Noah's naps have become very regulated and I do now have chunks in my day...it's just hard to sit myself down, be still, and read. every. single. word. without. skimming. Partly because getting the motivation to start is a million times harder than it is to keep going once it's a regular part of your routine.
So that's me. I know that right now I'm going on "manna" I've gathered from weeks and months and years before. I also know that I'm actually supposed to be out collecting manna on a daily basis to get me through each and every day. Sometimes (most times) head knowledge takes a really long time to become heart knowledge and ultimately action.
I think I'm going to write a book called "Everything I needed to know about life I learned while support raising."
It'll be a great book.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Thou shalt not...
On my home page this news story popped up about a couple receiving $100,000 from a complete stranger. Amazing.
I want that to happen to me. The things I could do with $100,000. And not things like blowing it on silly thousand dollar diaper bags...but things like getting rid of debt, buying a house instead of renting, getting a bigger vehicle - or at least one with 4 doors (you don't appreciate a 4 door until you have a baby!). I mean, I am happy with my life right now but of course I'd like to be out of debt and owning my own home.
Yes, that would be nice.
Sometimes it's far too easy to covet.
I want that to happen to me. The things I could do with $100,000. And not things like blowing it on silly thousand dollar diaper bags...but things like getting rid of debt, buying a house instead of renting, getting a bigger vehicle - or at least one with 4 doors (you don't appreciate a 4 door until you have a baby!). I mean, I am happy with my life right now but of course I'd like to be out of debt and owning my own home.
Yes, that would be nice.
Sometimes it's far too easy to covet.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
heads up stressballs
So apparently the top three things that prematurely age your skin are:
1. Stress
2. Smoking
3. Sun exposure
Well the second two things are a given, but the first? Wow. That's motivation to take more hot baths and relax!
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
2 things
I had heard it would happen and now it finally has. During my pregnancy I barely lost any hair and now it is coming out in chunks. It's disgusting and it's driving me crazy. Poor Noah always seems to have my hair on him or in his clenched little fist.
I hope it stops falling out soon or I feel like I'm going to end up bald!
On an entirely different note:
I am watching the recap of last season's LOST and I cried. Charlie was probably my favourite character. I can't wait for this season to start again.
I hope it stops falling out soon or I feel like I'm going to end up bald!
On an entirely different note:
I am watching the recap of last season's LOST and I cried. Charlie was probably my favourite character. I can't wait for this season to start again.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Easy eats
Whether you're a new mom, a poor student or just short on time, here's a meal you may like that's easy and cheap!I fried up 3 italian sausages (I always take them out of the casing because I find the casing gross and hard to cut) and then added a can of diced tomatoes and 1 1/2 cups of water and a few shakes of basil.
Once that boiled I added a box of macaroni and some extra pasta I had in a box. Let that simmer for 6 minutes and then I added 2 cups of baby spinach. Stirred it all together and then added the cheese mix plus a couple handfuls of grated old cheddar cheese.
DELISH!
It was yummy and...pretty healthy I think. :)
This dish was modified from this recipe.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
reads
Reading update:
I've read a whole whack load of Jodi Picoult books. They are all somewhat the same in that there's law and a court involved and usually young people getting in trouble. Currently I've just started "My Sister's Keeper" which I've heard RAVE reviews about so we'll see if I like it anymore than her others.
I also did read "A thousand splendid suns" and I've made my decision. I won't be reading any more of Khaled Housseini's books. They ARE well written but the stories he writes about are just too tragic and ... hard I guess. I don't generally read books to get depressed but his books just make me too sad. I realize that there are people out there who have these hard, tragic lives...but honestly, I don't really want to read about them. Does that make me a horrible person? Maybe I just don't want to think about the reality that others live in, day in and day out. I don't know...but that's my position.
As for The Birth House, I couldn't get past the 2nd chapter so I put that one down and returned it.
I got my last book on hold; "This is your brain on music" and that will be a vastly different read than the other novels I've been reading.
C'est tout.
I've read a whole whack load of Jodi Picoult books. They are all somewhat the same in that there's law and a court involved and usually young people getting in trouble. Currently I've just started "My Sister's Keeper" which I've heard RAVE reviews about so we'll see if I like it anymore than her others.
I also did read "A thousand splendid suns" and I've made my decision. I won't be reading any more of Khaled Housseini's books. They ARE well written but the stories he writes about are just too tragic and ... hard I guess. I don't generally read books to get depressed but his books just make me too sad. I realize that there are people out there who have these hard, tragic lives...but honestly, I don't really want to read about them. Does that make me a horrible person? Maybe I just don't want to think about the reality that others live in, day in and day out. I don't know...but that's my position.
As for The Birth House, I couldn't get past the 2nd chapter so I put that one down and returned it.
I got my last book on hold; "This is your brain on music" and that will be a vastly different read than the other novels I've been reading.
C'est tout.
Mr. Peepers
This is Mr. Peepers. He was given to Noah from our friend Shelly. I like Mr. Peepers a lot - he's so cute and definitely trendy. I hope he's one of Noah's favourite little toys.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
transition zones
After talking with a friend today I remembered a "poem" I had read and copied down into my journal during my time in New Zealand.
When I got home tonight I went looking for my journals and it was interesting to read my thoughts and experiences from such a formative period in my life. Sometimes I was a bit embarrassed by my thoughts, feelings, and actions during that time and sometimes I was amazed at what God taught me and how I grew during this time.
I did find the "poem". It's not really a poem at all but prose (I think). I thought I would type it out because I still really like it - 6 years later.
Most of the time I'm hanging on for dear life to my trapeze bar of the moment. It carries me along at a certain steady rate of swing and I have the feeling that I'm in control of my life. I know most of the right questions and even some of the right answers. But once in a while as I'm merrily swinging along, I look ahead of me into the distance and I see another bar swinging towards me. It's empty and I know, in that place in me that knows, that this new trapeze bar has my name on it. It is my next step, my growth, my aliveness coming to get me. In my heart of hearts I know that for me to grow, I must release my grip on the present, well-known bar to move on to the new one.
Each time it happens, I hope and pray I won't have to grab the new trapeze bar. But in my knowing place I realize that I must totally release my grasp on my old bar and for some time I must hurtle across space before I can grab onto the new bar. Each time I am filled with terror. It doesn't matter that in all my previous hurtles across the void of unknowing I have always made it. Each time I am afraid I will miss, that I will be crushed on unseen rocks in the bottomless chasm between the bars. But I do it anyway. Perhaps this is the essence of what the mystics call the faith experience. No guarantees. No net. No insurance policy. But you do it anyway, because somehow to keep hanging on to that old bar is no longer an alternative. And so for an eternity that can last a microsecond or a thousand lifetimes, I soar across the dark void of "the past is gone, the future is not yet here".
It's called transition. I have come to believe that transition is the only place that real change occurs. I have noticed that in our culture this transition zone is looked upon as a nothing, a no place between places. Surely the old trapeze bar was real and that new one coming towards me, I hope that's real too. But the void in between? That's just a scary, confusing, disorienting "nowhere" that must be gotten through as fast as possible. What a waste! I have a sneaking suspicion that the transition zone is the only real thing, and that the bars are illusions we dream up to avoid the void where the real change, the real growth occurs for us. Whether or not my hunch is true, it remains that the transition zones in our lives are the incredibly rich places. They should be honoured even savoured. Even with all the pain and fear and feelings of being out of control that can accompany transitions, they are still the most alive, most growth-filled, most passionate, most expansive moments in our lives.
And so, transformation of fear may have nothing to do with making fear go away, but rather with giving ourselves permission to "hang out" in the transition between trapeze bars. Transforming our need to grab that new bar, any bar, is allowing ourselves to dwell in the only place where change really happens. It can be terrifying. It can also be enlightening, in the true sense of the word.
Hurtling through the void, we just may learn how to fly.
When I got home tonight I went looking for my journals and it was interesting to read my thoughts and experiences from such a formative period in my life. Sometimes I was a bit embarrassed by my thoughts, feelings, and actions during that time and sometimes I was amazed at what God taught me and how I grew during this time.
I did find the "poem". It's not really a poem at all but prose (I think). I thought I would type it out because I still really like it - 6 years later.
Fear of Transformation
Sometimes I feel my life is a series of trapeze swings. I'm either hanging onto a trapeze bar swinging along, or for a few moments, I'm hurtling across space in between bars.Most of the time I'm hanging on for dear life to my trapeze bar of the moment. It carries me along at a certain steady rate of swing and I have the feeling that I'm in control of my life. I know most of the right questions and even some of the right answers. But once in a while as I'm merrily swinging along, I look ahead of me into the distance and I see another bar swinging towards me. It's empty and I know, in that place in me that knows, that this new trapeze bar has my name on it. It is my next step, my growth, my aliveness coming to get me. In my heart of hearts I know that for me to grow, I must release my grip on the present, well-known bar to move on to the new one.
Each time it happens, I hope and pray I won't have to grab the new trapeze bar. But in my knowing place I realize that I must totally release my grasp on my old bar and for some time I must hurtle across space before I can grab onto the new bar. Each time I am filled with terror. It doesn't matter that in all my previous hurtles across the void of unknowing I have always made it. Each time I am afraid I will miss, that I will be crushed on unseen rocks in the bottomless chasm between the bars. But I do it anyway. Perhaps this is the essence of what the mystics call the faith experience. No guarantees. No net. No insurance policy. But you do it anyway, because somehow to keep hanging on to that old bar is no longer an alternative. And so for an eternity that can last a microsecond or a thousand lifetimes, I soar across the dark void of "the past is gone, the future is not yet here".
It's called transition. I have come to believe that transition is the only place that real change occurs. I have noticed that in our culture this transition zone is looked upon as a nothing, a no place between places. Surely the old trapeze bar was real and that new one coming towards me, I hope that's real too. But the void in between? That's just a scary, confusing, disorienting "nowhere" that must be gotten through as fast as possible. What a waste! I have a sneaking suspicion that the transition zone is the only real thing, and that the bars are illusions we dream up to avoid the void where the real change, the real growth occurs for us. Whether or not my hunch is true, it remains that the transition zones in our lives are the incredibly rich places. They should be honoured even savoured. Even with all the pain and fear and feelings of being out of control that can accompany transitions, they are still the most alive, most growth-filled, most passionate, most expansive moments in our lives.
And so, transformation of fear may have nothing to do with making fear go away, but rather with giving ourselves permission to "hang out" in the transition between trapeze bars. Transforming our need to grab that new bar, any bar, is allowing ourselves to dwell in the only place where change really happens. It can be terrifying. It can also be enlightening, in the true sense of the word.
Hurtling through the void, we just may learn how to fly.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
blog recommendation
I've found a funny blog that I quite enjoy reading. If you don't mind a few cuss words here and there check out Local Girl for a comic-style blog.
books
I'm excited. Jamie went out and I got him to drop by the library to pick up some books that were on hold for me.
3 books.
1. The Birth House by Ami McKay
2. The Pact by Jodi Picoult
3. Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult
I have 6 other books still on hold for me. I'm STILL waiting for A Thousand Splendid Suns. It was all ready and waiting for me at the library but apparently they shipped it back out before I had a chance to get in and pick it up. I'm annoyed because now I have to get back in the queue (that is a really weird word to spell, by the way) to wait for it. I'm #16.
I love a good novel. But my problem is that if I really get into it then that's pretty much ALL I DO until I finish the book. It's a bit consuming sometimes.
On another reading note, I have taken up the challenge to read the Bible in a year. Okay so I'm a bit late starting but I've read Day 1 and will have to double up a few times this month to catch up. I think I need this structure to be able to get into the Word on a regular basis. Otherwise I'm like a fish out of water - flopping around, aimless and gasping for air. Yep. That's me alright.
3 books.
1. The Birth House by Ami McKay
2. The Pact by Jodi Picoult
3. Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult
I have 6 other books still on hold for me. I'm STILL waiting for A Thousand Splendid Suns. It was all ready and waiting for me at the library but apparently they shipped it back out before I had a chance to get in and pick it up. I'm annoyed because now I have to get back in the queue (that is a really weird word to spell, by the way) to wait for it. I'm #16.
I love a good novel. But my problem is that if I really get into it then that's pretty much ALL I DO until I finish the book. It's a bit consuming sometimes.
On another reading note, I have taken up the challenge to read the Bible in a year. Okay so I'm a bit late starting but I've read Day 1 and will have to double up a few times this month to catch up. I think I need this structure to be able to get into the Word on a regular basis. Otherwise I'm like a fish out of water - flopping around, aimless and gasping for air. Yep. That's me alright.
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