Tuesday, January 1, 2008

growing up

I'm back from Toronto. Back from Christmas festivities. Back from Winter Conference. Back from living NOT at home for the past week and a half.
It feels nice to be back.
This Christmas was different. It wasn't really fun but it was good. I think I've always looked forward to Christmas because you get to be a kid again but now celebrating Christmas with a kid is a little bit more work and effort. Like I had to be a responsible adult or something weird like that.
Winter Conference was extremely different. The first day and a half I wanted to NOT be there. Stuck in a hotel room. With a cranky 2 month old. Not fun.
But after Noah got settled and started napping again and we were in one location for more than 24 hours a bit of normality settled into our lives again. I was able to enjoy some sessions, even walk through the Eaton Centre with Noah in the Baby Bjorn and even go out to dinner a few times with friends!
I did, however, spend New Years (the last 30 minutes of 2007) in my hotel room, in bed, by myself, watching the countdown on tv.
It was okay because Noah was sleeping and I was tired anyway. I had prepared myself to be in the hotel room anyway. While it was still a bit disappointing and I almost had teary eyes as I left Jen's hotel room with a very tired little boy (who wouldn't fall asleep amidst adult conversation and a bit of laughter), in the end ... it's okay.
I'm glad that I truly can say that it's okay that that's where I spent New Years. I don't want to be bitter and being a parent continues to stretch and challenge my self-centeredness so I'm trying to embrace that and look at the good things - for instance that Noah was sleeping and not screaming. That's a VERY good thing. :)

4 comments:

  1. we should at least have given you a live feed of what was happening at our party! next time...

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  2. Hey Vanessa,

    Happy New Year! I got nothing but respect for you and Jamie. Can't wait to meet Noah for the first time.

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  3. Yes, welcome to my world!! I do remember all-nighters with friends for New Years...now we've morphed into a drop-in centre for the guys and friends!

    ...but, this too will pass and we will be asleep by 10pm like the Grands!!

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  4. Hey mamajamma,

    i hope noah starts sleeping through the night asap. (:

    i'm glad this experience is stretching, though i can't imagine it to be fun all the time.

    sometimes we babysit some staff kiddos here and putting them to bed is ALWAYS the hardest.

    HAPPY NEW YEAR.

    love you hot cakes

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