I'm not sure why.
I've been thinking about a lot of things. They just haven't transfered to this blog.
Parenting, Jesus, exercise, eating, family, friends, traveling...
I've been thinking about a lot of things.
On Tuesday we fly out to BC for 10 days with both boys for a work conference. I'm excited. My mind is constantly thinking, thinking, planning, prepping. It'll be the first time we've flown with both boys. And the first time Noah will have his own seat.
When we get home (Friday) the next day Jude turns ONE. But it's too soon for me to throw a party the next day so we'll do it on Monday since my cousin is having a (bridal) shower on the Sunday. In Michigan. 4 hours away.
And of course I got all ambitious this year and decided to do a "themed" birthday party for Jude. Which means a themed cake. Which I had hoped to bake ahead of time and freeze. And I still might do it. But I don't even know how to make this cake (I'm not telling you what it's going to be, but it's going to be CUTE!) so I'm giving myself permission to bail whenever it gets too stressful (ie. not fun).
And on that note, I AM having more fun these days. I am happier. More content. Trying harder to be the "Keeper of My Home". Domestically speaking, that is.
Some days I do AWE.SOME. Some days are a major FAIL.
Every day I try to be PRESENT for my boys and be all there and NOT sucked into this tricky thing called THE INTERNET. Some days I do AWE.SOME. Others...you guessed it. FAIL.
But I'm receiving Grace. And finally starting to desire HIM and His Word. It's been awhile since I've felt that.
Being a woman/wife/mother/daughter/sister/friend is complicated and multi-faceted. But I like that. It's hard, don't get me wrong, but when I think about how I have the rest of my life to keep growing and learning...it's a good feeling.
I think I'd get bored if I could be AWE.SOME at everything.
Off I go to keep thinking and do a bit of packing before bed...